Words.

Words are extremely important. The words you say can affect someone very much in their life. It can be stuck in their mind for a very long time, and hoping and wishing that they will still remember what they said. But the most awful feeling, is when they forget the words they said to you........

Moy, I've come to realise in this point of my life. No matter what happens to us, or where ever our pathway will take us. I'll always love you. I know it goes contrary to what I have just said to you last Monday during our jogging in the park. But no matter what, we'll always have each other and will be together at the end. You're my happy never-ending fairytale. Have a happy Thursday Moy. :)

The Boy Pick up look...

This boy is absolutely amazing in words that I don't even know how to use. It's the day after Valentines and I'm still feeling all lovey dovey. I shall make this post about me and him. I'm truly blessed to have him in my life. To be able to call him 'mine'. I celebrated my first ever Valentines day with a date with him. He definitely made it a day to remember. I am no longer 'foreveralone'. We only met last year but it feels like I've known him my whole life. He truly knows me inside and out. He knows that it takes me a while to fall asleep. He knew I despised the dish that I ordered on our lunch date yesterday. And most importantly...he knows how to make me happy. We've been together for over 7 months now, and we have went through a lot of obstacles together, laughing, fighting, smiling, arguing and crying. It was all definitely worth it. I'm happy and proud to say that we got through all of it.  He is my ray of sunshine. My love. It's crazy to think that if someone asked me who I love one year a go. I would never have pictured myself saying his name. We came from two completely different groups and now we're inseparable. He is my best-friend. I can be a completely weirdo and do really stupid things. But he doesn't mind, he accepts me for who I am which is what I love most about him. He doesn't judge me or look at me as if I should be locked up in a psycho hospital. He gets me. In other words, he completes my world. I really can not picture my life without him. He's the reason why I never had a proper good sleep ever since I met him. He's the reason why I have dark shadows under my eyes. But I really couldn't care, because I love him. I'm happy. I know I'm a bit young to say this....but I know what I want my last name to be when I get married. Mrs. Javier

This person, and myself are now 7 months together. February 12. What an awful day to remember yet it was filled with unforgettable loving memories. From him waiting for me for over an hour while I was eating in a Japanese restaurant to him walking back and forth to a place that we said we will meet. Then going to the YFC mass together to walking around town just to find the freaking 'noodle bar' to playing hide and seek with my parents in town. In fairness, it wasn't the best 7 month anniversary that I hoped for. But having him beside me today, on our day... definitely made it worth it. What can I say...I'm in love with this person. Eternity to go. 

Whats behind that face is an ugly personality.

SISTER. I'm grateful for everything that she has done for me and everything that she has given to me. But sometimes, I just want to get away from her and away from her bitchy-ness, drama, hormones, anger problems and mood swings. It's terrifying not knowing who she's going to strike on next. Everyone in the house is a target and I fear for their lives as she might just attack on anyone, any time. It's scary knowing that you are not safe if you're in the same room as her. She can smell fear, and once she smells fear. She'll attack the moment she has a chance to. I fear for my life. 

What would you know?

No one truly understands what other people are going through in their lives, it's nice to show some care towards that person but sometimes you just gotta butt out and stay the fuck out.  

They don't know what I truly feel, inside or outside. If only it was that easy, but it's not. In my situation I have to think about other people, the consequence and the worst possibility scenario that could happen. It's frustrating, they think they know my situation but they don't. How dare you fucking judge me. What happen to our 11 years of friendship.

Reality update.

This blogging site is pretty much my online diary where I come and rant things about stuff that's bothering me, because I chose not to rant to other people. I've been reading my posts and I've realized most of it has pretty much been negative. It's not my intention to write negative posts, especially when it's about me and him. But it's just exactly what I feel at the exact time. So from now on, I'll try to talk about some other stuff other than 'him'. This blog does not revolve about 'me and him'  


Well anyway, tomorrow. My YFC household will be having a day out together. It's been a while since I've been with them. Let's hope for a lovely weather, we'll be eating in Nandos and have the best delicious chicken. I said to myself, this weekend. Saturday will be my homework and study day. Did I fully commit to my promise? No. No homework done. As usual, Sunday night is always and will always be my last minute homework. But things are looking up. Only one more week and it's Midterm-break baby. 

Who are you?

I don't know who you are any more. I know I can't tell you what to do with your life, but I'm truly praying and hoping you'll chose wisely on what you want to do with it. In fairness if you're just going to sit around, do nothing....not going to your classes, playing computer games. By all means, go ahead. Waste the wonderful opportunity to study. Millions of people out there in the world will kill for anything just to be able to study. I really hope it'll be clear for you soon. You're future. This is you're future. If you're not going to do anything now, there won't be anything for you in the future. Reality check Moy. You can't hide from reality forever.