He has been on my mind for a couple of days now. And I'm starting to get worried. I did not plan into fallin' for him, but it somehow just happened.
I'm not thinking serious or anything, like being with him forever and ever and ever. GOSH NO. Just thinking, what he's doing and how he's been. His life is sorta upside down right now, with a family member of his in the hospital right now being in an unstable condition. I don't want to go into details, since it's not my business and all. But I'm hoping and praying that his little bro, will be alright and hopefully will get well soon.
We've been talking everynight lately on YM, for the past 2 weeks. And occasionally, if on a night, we don't get to speak each other. I begin to wonder, and think...whats keeping him occupied?
I sound so insecure. but really I'm not.
I really want to be good friends with him. Nothing more, nothing less. (At the moment anyway) I want to have a good friend relationship where I can tell him mostly anything, apart that I have a major crush on him. I want to open up to him and tell him my thoughts and opinions, how my day was and "Vice a Versa". But I don't see that happening in the nearby future. This guy is a mystery. He gives me very little detail about his life, which I'm grateful that he is giving me information, but they just come in little boxes. I want big boxes. I want to open him and make him trust me. Which can automatically make me trust him. Inable to opening up to him aswel.
"I'm those type of people. You do something for me, I do something back for you"
Sometimes I ask myself, why even bother trying to open up this guy. Well it's a challenge for me. It keeps me occupied and not think about the reality of life. On how the world is seriously decreasing it's wonderful-ness. It's my own little world where I use my charms and powers to make this guy fall in love with me. HAHAHAHA.
(Oh god, I'm getting so self dramatic there)
Okay. I'm sleeping. Farewell my readers. Till next time. XOXO
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