Things are definitely changing. Slowly, but surely. I guess it's time for a change, I'm not really asking for a change but I believe it's going to happen whether I want it to or not.
As for everyone, I'm now on my Summer Holidays. My Summer exams went sorta down hill, I really don't want to receive my results because god knows what my parents will say. But for now, I have no school for 3 whole months. Yeahbitch.
I want to have a good Summer. Like I did back in Summer 2010 and 2011. But 2012? Can you top it? I hope so. Also something to look forward to in the Summer, i'm going to San Diego for 2 weeks. Yes. I absolutely cannot get away from this country, from this crappy weather and just from everything here. I need a new place, somewhere to just relax and cool off my mind. A new fresh of air. I'm so excited! I'm going to Disneyland and no matter what age I am, I'm never to young for Disneyland!
As well as that, myself and Moy will be turning 11 months next June 12. It's scary and nerve wrecking because our relationship is so fragile, one little wrong move can create a big earthquake between our relationship and can slowly drift us apart from each other. 11 months have went by so fast, and I'm not going to lie. It was difficult to get to 11 months! So much drama, crying, fighting, arguing but most of all, also so much laughter, loving, and smiling. Am I already at the stage of the relationship where I can say 'He's the one?' Am I?
Sometimes I think I'm not the one for him. It's probably just me being paranoid but I don't know. I have so much high standards in relationships that sometimes I expect more than he could give. I know it's not fair, but c'est la vie. I always have that negative thinking in my mind, he says that he might be moving back to the Philippines to continue his studies. But who knows what will happen in the future, with his education, with his family, his friends and most importantly, us. Who knows what will happen?
I also have another issue to express from my mind, to go the YFC CONFERENCE in Spain or not? I wish someone could just do everything for me, I'm too tired and lazy to do anything. I would need to apply for a Spain Visa and buy flight tickets, and money for the expenses that will be needed after the conference. So should I go or not? It's a once a life time experience Spain Conference. I enjoyed myself very much last year in the YFC CONFERENCE in London, so why not Spain? Well, maybe the difference is because my sister was with me last year. And this year, unfortunately she is not able to go due to her working schedule.
And last but not least, I am super missing some people in my life right now. I have to promise myself, I have other people in my life other than my family and Moy. I am so guilty when leaving or ditching or abandoning my friends for a boy. GUILTY AS CHARGE. I don't understand how he can do it, he has time for his friends and his girlfriend, but when it comes to me, he is always the one I chose over any other thing or person. It is something about prioritizing? That's for sure, maybe I'm not important to him as much as he is important to me? Or maybe as usual, I am just being paranoid with everything. Silly little Jomarie.
Okay, I think it's time to go. Until next time my fellow bloggers. xxxxx
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