That feeling, that indescribable feeling where all of your emotions suddenly mix into this big pain. I feel like I want to fall down a cliff or just start and live in a dark cave, far far far away from people. I can't stand this feeling, where you want to cry your heart out until your body becomes dehydrated from too much crying. I'm so stupid for letting that person go. Everyone will look at me and think..."That's the girl who let the perfect boy go". The relationship in which I took part in this Summer made me into someone I'm not anymore. Someone completely different to who I was 5 months ago. I love him deeply with all of my heart but it just keeps getting harder all the time. I can't take it anymore. I'll accept the consequence. In a way I wish I can undo, rewind time and not have said anything. Or even better just forget about all the problems and just be happy. But I didn't. I'm so stupid. It hurts so much where your heart just can't take the pain anymore. I need a drug. I need him. I need my Moy.
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