Where is the moon.

It is extremely dark. 

Happy New Year everyone. This past week has been a roller-coaster with so many ups and downs. Mostly downs I have to be honest but at the end. The ride is finish. And we are all back on steady land. I've realized something in the past few days. I can't live with out him. It is just impossible to live and continue on with life knowing that he's not there anymore. Being alone. All you have left are the memories and the cherished moments that you have shared with each other. I've come to the point where I need him. Not in those clingy desperate ways. No not at all. I need him and I want him in my life. That's all.  

So here I am. First day of 2012. To be honest, it didn't start that well. As a few of my dearly loved ones were not there to celebrate New Year with me and the group. It felt incomplete. But that's life. 365 days left until 2013. I really hope this year will be a good year. More laughter, happiness and Moy&Goy moments please. Let's finish this 5th year in Highschool and get ready for 6th year. The big finale. This year I shall be turning 18. Still undecided on what to do...to have a debut or not. Decision shall be made somewhere time this year. It's so weird, thinking about it. Me. 18. Though I look like a 14 year old child but I'm going to be legal. Hellyeah. 

My New Year resolution? Is there even a point on having one? Well, I did say that I'm going to go back to kickboxing. I'm going to try and get my second white belt in Bushido Martial Arts. Sounds fancy, but not really. Secondly, I'm going to try and go back and reconnect with my long-lost ignored  non-asian friends. I have pretty much been ignoring them and ditching them. And I feel such a horrible person. But this year, I'm going to try and be back in the group again. Like good ol'times. I know they're mad, but hopefully they'll have the heart to take me back. And last but not least. Studies. I'll be a better student. I promise. 

I just want to say, goodbye 2011. You've been an extremely wonderful, adventurous, fun year. Transition Year and the school trips. The adventures my friends and I went through. Making new friends. Meeting someone amazing who I never pictured in a 1000 years that myself and him will end up together. Went through a lot of different experiences over this Summer. With the YFC Conference and most definitely true love. Then 5th year came along. Studies/Homeowrk/Studies and more homework. But it's been a great. 2011 you we're definitely one hell of a year. 2012 you better top it.