Haynakooo

I should just really stfu and mind my own business. I should just let him do whatever he wants, it's his life, his choice, his consequence. He has his own life, I have my own. I should really care less or even not bother to care anymore because I don't think he even cares that much anymore. Why do I always have these type of thoughts where one day i'm madly inlove with him and then the next day, I can't wait to just move on from him. I swear, sometimes I think I'm bipolar from this relationship. It's frustrating and so annoying being like this. 

I guess in a way, I just wanted him to give a little part of his day to me where we would actually make effort to communicate and shit. But it's been like this recently, most of the time actually. He's busy all day and at night time he's too tired...or still busy. Either way, I've comed to terms that myself and Moy are no longer the people we fell in love with 23 months ago. We rarely do the things to make the other person happy anymore and it's sad thinking about it, because once you have that person. All the effort is gone, unless you both are willingly enough to still put in the effort and care for the relationship.

I understand Moy is busy, he got accepted in Bubblecity and I am so proud of him. He's finally a working boy! I understand that he's going to be busy and will be tired, but at the end of the day he still has times for his gym and games and his SC but no time, not even a proper conversation for our relationship. 

Maybe I'm just over thinking again. I probably am anyway. I should just stop thinking about myself and Moy because it's not good for my health. Like, it literally is bad because it really would drive me insane just over analysing every single thing. Just have to remind myself that things will change in the future, whether it's good or bad. But it will change for sure. I'm going to Philippines for the Summer and everyone knows it's more fun in the Philippines. College life soon aswel, new people and new life style. Just have to stay strong and look forward to whats ahead in my life. 

I really need to care less though. Care less, less disappointments, no pain.