We are never ever ever ever ever ever getting back together.

I think the title of this post says it all. But I like to write, and therefor...I shall write. 

At some point in our lives, we can't hold on forever. Especially when there's nothing to be holding on to. I think I am done. Like literally, I just don't know what to do anymore because I don't think there's nothing for us. We've been down hill ever since our First Anniversary and constantly we've been fighting. I'm just tired and just want to get away. I'll be finishing school in like 10 days and then I'm off to the Philippines for 6 whole weeks. I'll be starting college as well and I am just so damn excited for everything new that's coming to my life. To be honest, I just want to be happy again. I just want to find happiness. I don't want to be worrying and being paranoid and always feeling worthless to someone who I appreciated and basically placed him on a shrine in my world. I know it's my fault as well maybe because we both ended up like this due to my actions from my graduation night. But you know what, fuck it. He's never going to be there for me when I need him, especially times like this when I need someone to calm me down and comfort me as THE LEAVING CERT IS FUCKING TOMORROW. I do try to fix our relationship. I'll always be there for him when he needs me and I will cheer him up when ever he's down. I don't know what to do anymore when he's always pushing me away, ignoring my texts and calls. In other words, it's better to have nobody than have someone who is never there for you. I know he's enjoying his Summer right now and good for him. I'll enjoy my Summer as well, starting on the 13 of June at exactly 4:30 pm. I'm gonna move on. No more. I promise.