Hold me closer tiny dancer.

"Are you okay?"

I'm sick and tired hearing those 3 words. For the past two days, those are the words that I'm hearing so often. So what if I'm not okay? I'm glad that your noticing my behaviour and sorta care about me, but seriously, your just getting on my nerve. No matter what you ask. Or what I answer. You CAN'T help me. So let me be me. For who I am and this is how I am. Life for me, is absolutely at it's low point. I could honestly say this with absolutely sureness "FML"

School work and Studies have litereally hit me. Like physically hit me with a shovel behind my back because right now I'm getting this huge headache from school stuff. I'm absolutely frustrated that I cannot find this art picture my Art Teacher drew for me. It was a guideline on what I should do for my poster. I absolutely need it. Like literally, if I don't find it. I actually think I'm going to cry. This small A4 paper may seem nothing to other people like eg. Mama and Papa. But to me, it matters. This paper can actually help me get an A on my Art Project.

IF.....I find the picture on time. I don't want to ask my teacher again, because first, he's not really my art teacher. He's an art teacher but just not mine. And secondly, he's really busy. He's already got enough in his hands and I only asked for his help because I knew that he is better than my current art teacher. Who is by the way taking us to the zoo next week. I clearly don't know why.

And this is why, just a small piece of paper, made my attitude and behaviour act all different, making my family notice. And making them ask "are you okay"

Only 12 days left until my mocks. The pressure is getting to me, and I think it's time I'm going to have to say goodbye to my laptop. It's hard for me, and I'm even wondering if I can do it? But if it's what in the way of me doing my best in the mocks. Then...it shall be done. I'll try to go on the internet to blog, if there is any way I can get access to. It's like saying goodbye to my baby.

I'm going to miss you laptop. You have been with me through good and bad times. I've shared you many things. Many things that I haven't even shared it to my best-friend. This "break" is only temporary. I promise, if I get a chance, I will go on it. But I will not make any promises. I will be back. That's for sure. So do not replace me.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

seriously major drama there. But thats how I feel :)

I guess this is goodbye.

Until next time. xoxo

And PEOPLE.

Wish me luck. I definetely need it.