1st day of February.
The day we say goodbye to Winter and Hello to Spring. It wasn't really a good start for me, I actually don't have anything on my mind at all except for him. It's sucks you know, because I actually never planned to like him again..but here I am writing a blog about him. It's not really a whole blog about him, it just nearly rounds up to nearly about all about him.
He has a girl.
Which totally sucks by the way. And I just found out today. I feel so stupid...for falling for him. There I thought, with all the signs and clues...he was a bit leading me on. But it was all my fault. It was my choice to follow back. In which case I did and I totally wish I hadn't. Now he's happy with her. Which even sucks more because I don't really like the girl. I know her. She's my friends best-friend. Although I don't fully know her. I just know well enough, that she's smart, pretty and funny. First day I met her. I actually thought to myself. This girl is amazing. Like..I thought she would be a good friend, because she's a great friend to everyone. But I actually dislike her at the moment. I know it seems very childish not liking a person because she's with what you so call Prince Charming but hey. What can you do.
Today, at break, my friend and I were off to Day Dreamin' Land and literally we spent the whole break time talking about our perfect guy, and what our future would be like. Our debs, our holidays. Us being mothers. HA. Our wedding. HA. and even more crazier, our Hen's party. I know. We dream big and way to far ahead. The crazy thing is that...I described him. As my perfect guy. And I had a thought to myself, I think he is. Like everything I want in a guy. Literally.
But no chance #0*@)*&#>?
It's sucks.
"You always like the guys you can't get" And before, I would probably go for him...because follow your heart and listen to it. No matter who is wrong or right. Either your heart or your head. Always follow your heart because that is where it's going to lead to your happiness. It may cause some pain at first, but it's worth it. After that pain. It's a happy feeling. But now he's with her. I guess...Game Over.
Well...thats all. Sorry for posting again.
(ohyeah. In my last post I talked about saying goodbye to my laptop, and I did make it. For like two days only? And you know what. I can't do it. I'm not even going to force myself in trying it when at the end of the day I know what the result would be. I will try to lay off the internet as much as I can but I really enjoy blogging. After today, and what the news I just found out. I felt like blogging it because I can't really truly express my mind by voice. I have to type it out into words because thats how I express my inner-self.
Sooo..First day of Spring And February Sucks.
Hope the rest of the whatever is good :)
Zoo tomorrow. Art class. I'm bringing my camera tomorrow so I will take some awesome cool shots of my art teacher eating a bananna. haha. joking. I want to take good photos of some animals so I can later develope it in my art project.
I guess thats it.
I'm out. Sleeping time for moi.
Adios.
xo.xo
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