I like it like that.

Well, today...I spent my whole saturday afternoon and evening watching the first season of Gossip Girl. And my goodness, I just fell in love with the show all over again. My sister borrowed the first Season DVD of Gossip Girl from her friend, and today we decided to watch all of it. Well, nearly all of it if we weren't stopped by our parents. So basically we had a Gossip Girl Marathon.

Gossip Girl is just the best really. I don't know how I can explain the beauty of this show. It's amazing. I don't understand why I just started watching this show this year 2010 when it has been out since 2007. It's unbelievably entertaining non-stop.

I realised something very important today, on this day. Around 8pm-ish. I actually don't like weekends anymore. Before, I use to get excited for the weekends because no school. Two days of relaxation. But how could I relax when I have both of my parents at home just waiting to breathe on me and annoy me phyiscally and mentally. I actually cannot wait for weekdays. Knowing that my parents would be at work and I'd be in school or anywhere as long as I'm away from them. Having over 8 hours being away from them is enough for me. More hours would be better but we all know, all adults need to take a rest from their work. I seem to sound so mean, and such a cruel child writing stuff about my parents. But you don't know half of the story. It's beyond the point where I can't write the things because it's just too hard to write it out. Thinking about it is just horrible.

It's not that I hate my parents, my parents are good people. They just have this attitude and their personality where you sometimes wish that you were half way around the world away from them. They have these moods where one day they can be the greatest parents in the world, and the next, it's the worst. I basically think that every word that comes out from their mouth just makes me want to pull every string of hair on my head.

When I see families who are what you call perfect. It makes me jealous. I wish I could have a greater and better relationship with my parents. I don't know whats happening but every day I just get further and further away from them. Is it called growing up maybe? Where I become into an adult and not a child. Where I don't need any help from them besides food and shelter? But yet, every human at the age of 15 years old needs their parents. But parents like mine should not push their children away. This is for sure, somehow going to affect me and my future.

I'm just so excited, to move out from my parents house and away from them. It's going to feel good.

xoxo