What scares you?

Hello readers.

Today, I'd like to focus on fear, that uncomfortable feeling that prevents you from taking the action necessary to get what you want in life.What scares you? What sends shivers up and down your spine? What gives you the "heeby geebies"? We all have our fear. And for each person it's different as we are all different human beings. Some might be scared of the dark, or creepy crawling bugs. Some people are afraid of heights, and even school. Our researchers have surveyed people, resulting that over 90% of things we worry about never happen. It's crazy that we have this weird picture in our minds on our fears on what will happen to us. But it's funny because it never happens in our lives.

I myself, have fears aswel. For many years now I have a fear of going near creepy crawling insects or anything that's small, crawls, or have more than 4 legs. I absolutely despise insects. I'm always picturing in my head that they're on me if I'm near any one of them. They're on your back, just crawling up and down inside your shirt. Lurking through your hair, crawling around your neck. Imagine their small disgusting mouth on your skin. It's horrifying. Just thinking about it makes me shiver and itchy right now....Okay, enough talking about 'creepy crawlies'. It's just going to make me itch more.

But technically, fears of insects won't stop me from living my life. I always find ways to prevent it. Just to stay away from them basically. It's hard to talk about fears because just thinking about it makes you want to hide under your bed. But it's also good to talk about them aswel. You are opening up, and facing your fear instead of hiding from them. I've never told this to people yet and writing this just makes me feel more open and I feel like I'm on a step where I'm finally over-coming this fear. I'm claustrophobic. Going into a small spaces with people surrounding me just makes me feel like I'm trapped. I don't like people closing in around me. The people around me are taking up my air which is why I go into panick. I feel that I'm down under water, around 40feet under. As I swim going up to breathe and get some air I feel that someone is dragging me down which stops me from getting my air at the top. I've had a dream before where I was trap in a small car, and all doors and windows were locked. Knowing the fact in myself, that I cannot get out. It was terrifying as the next day in my house, the moment I woke up. I opened all windows and doors in my house.

Another thing, in which I'm sure about that I'm not the only one who's afraid of this. Is death. I'm sure everyone has atleast thought in their life, about how they were going to die. People don't plan their death. It's scary thinking about it. You will leave everything behind in this world. The people who's hearts you have touched. Your most precious valuables where you have worked very hard for to earn. It's scary thinking about death because you don't know what's going to happen next? Some people believe in "Life after death" and some just think that lives are over. OVER. I'm afraid of dying at a young age. Where I'm still young and I still have yet so many things to accomplish in my life. Anything can happen really. One day you are living and next day you are living on a life support machine. This article about fears and death is not suppose to scare you. It's suppose to make you more aware that anything can happen. Sooner or later, everyone we know is going to die. But the scary thing is when? I myself, would prefer dying peacefully and hopefully not in any pain. I would want my family and close friends around me so I can say my last goodbyes to them. Resting in peace knowing that I have said everything I needed to say to them.

The future for everyone is not clear...because the choices we make today will affect our future. On who we become. When you're in school it's absolutely terrifying making choices. The CAO for an example. The College application. Once you write down your choices theres no turning back. When you are picking your subjects for the senior year, it's scary because this will affect your education in the future. On what you want to be. You have to think it carefully and properly. Once you have written down everything and sent it. You think to yourself...is that what you want? How do we know it's the right decision that we've chosen ourselfs? To be honest, we don't know. Only us ourselves can decide, and if it was a mistake. Then I guess we will learn from our mistakes.

The future is scary, because you don't know whats ahead. At the start of each year, theres always people in the world carrying signs around roads "THE WORLD IS GOING TO END" The apocalypses an example, people are saying that in the year 2012, December 21st. The world is going to end. I don't believe in this theory but yet people around the world are believing it. People are being prepared and packing up things in which the world will end and everything will be ruined. And what makes me think more...they even made it into a movie. 2012. One thing for sure, when it gets to the year 2013 I'm going to watch the movie 2012 and laugh.

So that's basically what my fears are. It's nice to tell someone about them once a while. We need to conquer our fears because it's what stopping us from living our lives to the fullest.

For next week's column, I will be talking about the crazy things your parents use to do when they were young. And let me tell you, it's something you would want to know!

This is my English Essay homework. I like writing my english homework here first because to me, it just feels like a blog. So if I write english essays, I write them out first here then write it down on the blog.

Weird huh? But that's just how I roll =D