I just really have no idea what to do. Moy arrived back in Dublin, I don't know when but all I know he's here in the same country, time zone as me. This is really driving me crazy, why am I worrying about my relationship when I should be worrying about my Leaving Cert. My future!
Right now, I feel really stupid. Being in a serious relationship when I'm still young. If I knew this is how it was all going to turn out, the last week before the important exams of my life and I'm worrying about a boy, I would have chosen not to be in a relationship. God I'm so stupid! Why did I even open up to him, why did I even say yes to him. I fell in love with a boy two years ago and now I'm so madly deeply crazy in love with him that I literally can't concentrate on my exams. My parents warned me. My parents told me to be in a relationship after school, or better, after college so there will be no distraction. But look where I am right now. Distractions fucking everywhere. I'm literally so pissed off but what makes me more pissed off is that this is all because of me. I'm distracted from my education because of my actions I did on my graduation night. It's all my fault and there's no one else to blame.
And now I'm on my own.
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