It was only a kiss.

My actions last night was absolutely unacceptable. I hurt someone very dearly to me, very special to me, the person I love. It was so stupid, irresponsible and immature of me. 

I had my Highschool Graduation last night, and after the ceremony, we all celebrated in a night club which I sorta got a bit drunk. It was my first time going night clubbing and I have to be honest, I just wanted to have fun and let lose. I was finally finish with Highschool and it was definitely a good reason to celebrate but obviously not to get over drunk. I had a few drinks which caused my irresponsible behaviour for the rest of the nightl. In a way, my friends all wanted to see me get drunk and I know it's no excuse but peer pressure maybe? I just let myself get drunk and it affected the relationship I had with someone and definitely my wallet because the drinks are so danm expensive. I spent over 30euro on drinks last night when I could have spent the 30euro on a Korean BBQ Buffet between myself and Moy. 

I kissed someone last night. We were both sitting down, chatting because we had a connection, we were both asians. Our faces were close to each other while talking because the music in the club was extremely loud. One thing led to another, we kissed. The kiss didn't last long, it was like less than two seconds or even less. I felt horrible afterwards knowing that someone wouldn't be happy if he found out. Which he did, because I told him when I arrived home from the club. 

There is no point for excuses and explaining my reasons because what's done is done. And nothing can't be changed. But if there was any way or if there was a possibility to turn back time and change my actions I definitely would. 

Moy, if ever you read this post. I want you to know how completely sorry I am. I regret my actions and it's not fair on you. You've been faithful and loyal with me. Moy, you said it's cheating and yes, it is cheating. I kissed someone else, I just wanted you to be there with me, on my graduation and on my first time going clubbing. The feeling of having someone there with you, so I can have fun, kiss and dance with you all night long. I guess, I was just missing you so much that I was brought along with the kiss with that guy from the club. I'm going to be honest, alcohol sometimes gets me horny when I over drink too much. 

I know my excuses and actions are unacceptable. 

I am deeply sorry Moy, and hopefully you'll be able to forgive me one day.